"Happy Girls Are The Prettiest Girls"

Just a somewhat quick update :)

via Stilettos And A Fishing Pole

 

Date: November 9, 2011

My Initials: KES

Age: 21

Size: Medium/Average lol

 

Friday Nights: Cooking with the roomie and lots of lovely friends over :)

 

Hair Style: Medium (yay!!) and blonde!

Favorite place to dine out: Chilis (haha) or Nishie G's

Favorite Outfit: Skinny jeans, heels, and a super cute top :)

Love Life: Non existent as of right now lol. But I'm perfectly okay with it. I've made the decision that dating just to be dating is not what I want. I don't want a relationship unless its someone I can be serious with. Been on a few dates here and there but nothing serious....yet :)

Home Life: It's really great! Finally moved into my own place about two weeks ago with my absolute best friend. We've been super close since 7th grade and we've always talked about moving in together one day. I'm so glad we finally did it! I love our little house :) It definitely suits us. 

TV shows: Weirdly enough I'm loving DWTS haha. Other than that I don't really watch too much tv.

Extra time: Lately I've been spending most of my extra time organizing the new house and getting settled in. We've been having some friends over too so that's been great :)

What excites me: What's exciting right now is the fact that it's fall! I'm also loving the football season :) I'm really enjoying the fact that I'm learning how to cook! I'm really loving it :). I'm pretty excited about the holiday season coming up especially since I've got my own place to decorate! I'm excited that my church is getting a new Music Minister and apparently he's absolutely amazing! Now, I LOVE to sing. And I've always felt called to sing in the choir at church. But I wanted to wait until I found "the one". The church is go to is definitely where God wants me right now so who knows, maybe with this new Music Minister the choir thing will work out too! I'm also so happy that I can finally get back involved with the youth at my church. I quit helping for a little while just because I was gonig through some stuff. But the other sunday the new leader walked up to me and asked for my help. And it just felt like that was God's way of saying "GO BACK".

 A moment I never want to forget: The day I sat in Alex's living room and signed my lease :) I cannot imagine the overwhelming joy I felt when It hit me that I had my OWN place! A place that I made the rules. I was responsible for. I paid for. I've worked my whole life to get to this point. I finally have everything I want :) This year I became completely independent of my parents and became a full fledged adult and you cannot even believe how proud that makes me of myself! I'll never forget that moment that I signed that dotted line :)

Teardrops

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS

I feel like everyone should read and understand this because it is so true :)

A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?” “Because I’m a woman,” she told him. “I don’t understand,” he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, “And you never will.” Later the little boy asked his father, “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?” “All women cry for no reason,” was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, “God, why do women cry so easily?” God said, “When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.” “You see my son,” said God, “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.” Author: Unknown

Southern Folks

"The South; where tea is sweet and accents are sweeter; summer starts in April; front porches are wide and words are long; macaroni and cheese is a vegetable; pecan pie is a staple; Y’all is the only proper pronoun; chicken is fried and biscuits come with gravy; everything is darling and someone is always getting their heart blessed."

Well I'm about to get real southern on yall for a minute here.
I was watching The Chew earlier today and something on there struck a nerve with me.
They were having the "country cooking" segment and they all dressed up in flannel, boots, and cowboy hats. they all kept saying "howdy" and "yeehaw" and talking in a suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper stretched drawl and a thick twang. And they all kept making comments about "living on the ranch" and "herding cattle"

Now, I know that it's funny sometimes to stereo type southern people in this way. But that was just too much for me.  I've lived in the south my whole life, and to me, the south is nothing like this. Being southern isn't an accent or a clothing style. It isn't "herding cattle" or "living on a ranch/farm".

Being southern is something classy and simple. Being southern is a way of life. It's about appreciating the simple things that God so graciously blessed us with. It's about loving your family whole heartedly and your friends the same. It's about thanking the good Lord for everything you have in life. It's about saying "ma'am" and "sir", "please" and "thank you". It's about cooking big meals on sunday afternoon after church and then falling asleep on a porch swing and maw maw's house. It's about hunting and fishing. It's about being proud of where you came from. It's about still saying the pledge of allegiance...the right way... and taking your hat off while saying it. It's about honoring the many men and women who have fought and/or died for our freedom. It's about high school football games and tailgating all day saturday to watch your favorite college football team. It's about wearing a smile like it's the greatest accessory you own. It's about small towns and knowing everyone by their first names. It's about good food and definitely fried chicken. It's about bonfires and roasting marshmellows. It's about guitars and good music. It's about the bible being the only law and God the only judge. It's about fighting for what you believe in. It's about sticking together and always having each others backs. It's about not being scared to get your hands dirty. It's about fourwheeling and muddy tires. It's about high heels, pearls, dresses, and camo. It's about barefeet and summer time.

Southern is about community, God, family, friends, manners, love, fun, and sunshine. It's about tailgates, truck beds, bonfires, barefeet, football, and fishing poles. It's about high heels, pearls, ribbons, curls, camoflauge, and cowboy boots.

Yeah we have cows, farms, cowboys, accents, drawls, and a twang. But that's on the surface of southern people. There is a much deeper meaning to being southern.

What does it mean to you?

BYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYE brO :)

Haha only a select few of my lovelies will understand the title of this blog and will be laughing hysterically when they read it!

Anywho....
This weekend was absolutely hilarious. Very super eventful too I must add

but let me just say.... GO ARKANSAS haha
Clemson had a bi-week so a few good people came over and we watched the Carolina vs Arkansas game and then we watched LSU remain #1 in the nation and stay undefeated when they beat Alabama without ever even scoring a touch down. Talk about an interesting game!

Anyways my weekend can be summed up as this

-friends came home from out of town .... :)
A friend from a while ago was home this weekend and I got to spend some much needed time with him. LOVED IT
-reunited with my friend Ericka and im SO excited about it
She got married and ran off to Florida but shes back home now and I AM SO  FREAKING EXCITED lol
-made up a new "high five" rule
If you can make someone give you a high five five times in one night you get a kiss. LOVE this rule :) lol
-cooked a BANGING dinner friday night... go me :)
sauteed beef tips with peppers and mushrooms. Homemade mashed potatoes, and green beans... yum :)
-made new friends
I met a lot of new people this weekend and loved everyone of them :)
-I definitely smacked some guy in the face for being disrespectful to me ... once again... go me :) lol
lets just say I don't tolerate ignorance and he was being very rude and disrespectful to me, Ericka, and some other friends and I just got sick of it. So I slapped him and walked out. I don't usually feel like being physical is the answer but this guy really needed it and I just happened to be the one to finally do it.
-lots and lots and lots of wings and football!
need I say more?
-finally made our little house feel like a home :)
Alex and I have been in our little humble abode for a little over a week now and we FINALLY got everything unpacked and put away. Everything is decorated and finally has our personalities in it. We made it a home by having a few of some great friends over this weekend :)
-My little brother's birthday....
HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY ZACKIE I love you little man :)


What did you do this weekend?

Heartache

I swear the hardest conversation in any person's life is telling the one person you loved whole heartedly, that you want them to be happy, even if it means with someone else.

I did that today.

In every woman's life, the first love is always the deepest. It's the first time she ever gives a man her heart and trusts him completely with it. It's an absolutely beautiful feeling. But when it ends, it hurts more than any other pain. But its always the one love that will always stay in her heart.

Well, it's been two years since my first love and I ended things. Since him I've had two boyfriends, but neither of which were the same as it was with him. No one ever will be.

"The truth is, I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart, and I never really got it back" -Sweet Home Alabama

Through everything life has thrown at us, we've remained very close friends. And I truly believe we always will be. He had been there for me through some difficult points in my life. And he is the only boy whose ever completely accepted me and loved me for exactly who I was. Whenever I cried or was sad or upset, he was who I called to talk about it. He's the only one who could ever understand or know what to say, or even when I just needed him to say nothing at all. When I was happy or excited I called him because I knew he would know exactly why I was so happy. He could appreciate whatever it was that meant so much to me. And of course he was the same way with me.

After we ended things he had an off and on thing with this girl but after a while I guess it just kind of simmered out. It was never anything really serious. But then a few months ago, I could tell the way he talked to me had changed a little. Apparently he had started spending time with another girl. At first I didn't really get too concerned because I didn't think it was anything serious. He never really talked about her. But in the back of my mind, I knew he cared because things started to feel a little different between us. Then a few days ago, I found out they were more serious than I thought. They were "boyfriend and girlfriend". GIRLFRIEND.... a title he hadn't allowed any other woman to have the priveledge of having since me.

As much as it hurts, and as much as I wish I could just keep him to myself, I have to be fair. Because I know in my heart I can't expect him to sit around forever and be in love with me. Eventually he was going to have to move on with his life and find someone who could make him happy.

Today, I finished reading my book "Dear John" by Nicholas Sparks and the very end of the book he says that to truly love someone it means you have to want whatever makes them happy even if that means making a sacrifice.

That hit so close to home. I immediately had to call him and tell him that whatever it meant to make him happy I would completely support him and be happy for him and that I wished him all the best.

Hardest.words.of.my.life.

But I meant it completely.

Share Your World Thursday

I found this absolutely lovely new link up on one of the greatest blogs Stilettos And A Fishing Pole.

Every thursday, there are a set of questions, just random things. It's supposed to help the readers get to know you (and also help the blogger with writers block.... which I tend to have a LOT these days!)

So here goes : )

1. Go back five years, would you have pictured your life as it is now or would it have been different?  If so, how or why?
Five years ago I would have been 16. (I know I'm a baby!)
But when I was sixteen, I dreamed of having this romantic love life. I dreamed that I would find my high school sweetheart and he would be the man of my dreams. We would get married at this elegant fairytale wedding and live happily ever after. I would be a stay at home mom, we'd be living in a gorgeous white house with a wrap around porch, like in the notebook, and all would be well with the world.
As you should know, my life is NOTHING like I pictured it back then. I'm not married. My high school sweetheart and I are no longer together. I don't have children. No fairytale wedding or a pretty white horse. Definitely no wrap around porch. I work everyday. But I'm perfectly happy with how my life has turned out. It's like I've always said "some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers"-Garth Brooks

2. In a perfect world with no attachments, my career would be...
I've always loved children. I have a passion for seeing the smiles on their faces when you interact with them and play with them. And I've always wanted to do something to better their lives. In a perfect world I would be a teacher in elementary school. But in reality college is ridiculously expensive and the need for new teachers is rare. But I love my job at the bank and I'm glad I ended up here :)

3. Name one thing you do {or don't do} that the world may think strange of you.
Haha it sounds funny, but I tend to match my clothes to my underwear! I know its random and maybe TMI but I'm just that OCD about coordinating : ) lol

Mr. Not So Wonderful

In case you haven't been following along with me on here or on facebook, the last two months I've sort of been seeing someone. Now, not necessarily dating him but just spending time with him and getting to know each other.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm ready for love. I'm ready to have someone to give my heart to and who can do the same in return. But I am also not out to just date. I don't want to spend anymore time wasted on just dating. I want to find someone who I can be commited to and who I can be serious with. So I've made a promise to myself that I won't get serious with anyone unless I know it's worth it.

Well I thought I had made this very clear to him from the get go. I made sure he knew that all I wanted was a friend right now and that after getting to know each other, if we felt like it was right, then later on maybe it would turn into something more. Just not yet.

So we spend a lot of time together. We would go for rides in the country on his motorcycle, we'd spend the day at the lake, we had dinners, watched movies, went out a few times. Simple things like that. And he seemed to be such a great guy! He comes off as being this genuine, sweet, and caring person.

All of a sudden the "too good to be true" set in and I found out what he was REALLY like. Through all of this, he's been playing different people. The "sweet guy" to me, the "bad boy" at work, and the "innocent child" to his parents.

Needless to say "Mr. Wonderful" turned out to be not so wonderful after all and we ended the friendship.

"Never let a man tell you you're not worth pursuing. For God became man, died, and rose again just to pursue you"

Play pretty loves :)

Kristen